self indulgence.

I just forgot what I was going to blog about.

Thanks, Alysha for sending me that picture of that look-alike. -.-

I keep telling myself (and everyone else) that I'm over you.
But then I just started to realize
I'm not over you.
Hell no, I'm not over you.
Not even close.


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Fasting starts tomorrow. Whoo-freaking-hoo. On a brighter side, hopefully i drop some KG's.
Doubt it though because I just came back from the supermarket and bought like candy + two tubs of icecream. Rocky Road baby! PMR is inching closer and closer and hell no, I'm not even close to ready. Unlike other people though, I'm not gonna complain about how I need to study because what's the point of complaining when I know I won't? Rationality.

And I've been driving myself insane with... stuff.

Screw you :P

like no other...

and
Happy 2 year anniversary Ryan & Keltie.

i want love like this.

Though I don't even know him (as a friend), and he definitely doesn't know me (yet), this man here is what inspired to me write and become famous and actually achieve that dream and stuff. And he always manages to make me smile in all his interviews with his blur-ness lol. And his a gorgeous, gorgeous man. :O With rad guitar skillz and a sexy voice. Disagree and die. Anyway, hope he has a great birthday! Though his on tour now, in New Zealand to be exact.

He has a girlfriend, Keltie Colleen, (read my previous posts dumbass), and I've come to respect that because she puts a smile on his face. Plus she's gorgeous. And has a hot bod. AND I LOVE HER DANCING. kay. Har har. So yeah, Happy Anniversary 2yr to them (:

You suck so passionately.

It's 5:12 AM right now. A few more hours to my *gulp* KH and Geo trials. And I'm here, online talking to Tesh and Ely. MY HTF GANG <3

yea my sleeping hours are pretty much screwed up. no im not crazy im perfectly sane. and no i wont be tired cos no sleep makes me MORE HYPER. just ask my class :]


Here I am,
composing a burlesque,
out of where they rest their heads,
sulking in their splintered cradles.
And ramshakled hands,
They asked for it,
As a boy,
I eat my wishes on golden tooth picks and digested them with wolf intestines,

I fell from the heavens,
As a fetish blessed with,
An operatic skeleton,
And as the stars watch me descend,
I cracked a family tree and,
Chopped off all of the branches,

- PANIC, PLEASE MAKE THIS A NEW SONG.

pretty pretty.

okay haha the former blog post was me being jakun again :)

man i have not blogged in ageeees. cause my laptop got confiscated, trials oh trials it's what youuu dooo to meeeeee. :) this is my sister's.

trials are pretty uhmm... okay. Besides the fact that I am going to flunk Math. That subject worries me. A LOT. Sejarah was ASGHFSAFKSAF times easier than trial one fo' sho'. Tomorrow's Science and on Friday's Geography and Kemahiran Hidup (die die die. KH.)

It's been raining like literally everyday... kinda reminds me of the beginning of the year again. I have a lovehate relationship with rain... for reasons you wouldn't be able to comprehend.

MOVING ON.

Fasting month is in a few days. I kinda can't wait :P Good food during fasting month okay! Hmmm, OH. Saturday night and Friday night I had a Hayden Christensen movie marathon. Watched Virgin Territory for the first time. It was damn hilarious but it was super sick too :) NVM. Watching Hayden make out with a super sexy scar on his neck makes up for the sickness :D

So many shows are coming outtttt omg. And I cant buy them cos I'm gonna be having PMR in 2 months. Sad, so very sad. Speaking of PMR, here's what I'm gonna do the instant it's over.

1) Take up guitar classes. ( MUST MUST MUST MUST )
2) Go for tennis lessons again. (i havent played since std 6 0.o)
3) Take up dance lessons. (Yesyes, I'm inspired by Kelts ahah)
4) LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5) Gain some self confidence.

That's pretty much all I can come up with. I'll be adding mooore :D

Dld:
About A Girl- The Academy Is
Northwestern Girls- Say Hi To Your Mom
Fight Song- The Appleseed Cast
La Musique- Riot In Belgium (LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. thanks to alysha)

Yeah... those songs are pretty much stuck on rewind in my head.

Keltie Colleen :)

.......is awesome.

she shakes really well ;) ryan would like this ;)

i DARE you to say that wasnt freaking beautiful.

.... i would date her just for her dancing hahahaha. :O

before twilight is released....

I CALL DIBS ON JACKSON RATHBONE, LOSERS.

southern man, you are perfection :)

ps: i hope JAS, SHANNI AND MARIA read this. cause they'll want him too after the movie, i bet :D

wth

i should stop getting myself into all this crazy shit....

oh wells.

ohmygod :)

A new car built by my company leaves somewhere traveling at 60 mph. The rear differential locks up. The car crashes and burns with everyone trapped inside. Now, should we initiate a recall? Take the number of vehicles in the field, A, multiply by the probable rate of failure, B, multiply by the average out-of-court settlement, C. A times B times C equals X. If X is less than the cost of a recall, we don't do one. - Fight Club.

hello schmello. i'm not supposed to be online but whatever. i intend to finish studying form 2 history later tonight :) since i havent finished studying ANYTHING.

Singapore was awesome. I saw way alot of white chicks and dudes. I shopped until I can't feel my feet anymoree and like.. yeah. We actually stayed in Johor cos my dad's meetings were there but my mom, sister and I took a taxi to Singapore like for both days in the morning and come back at like 11+ at night.

I also watched Fight Club on my laptop on Saturday night with my mom. Ohmg, twisted much?

Friday was the patriotic run and merdeka carnival. i placed 13th. meh. The Merdeka Carnival wasnt that bad. Spent most of my time with Elyas & Co. Ate like a pig.

Okay I'ma stop blogging now. Bye bye :D

I want someone who makes me feel beautiful.

It's 12:52 AM, I haven't had a shower, I'm SUPPOSED to be studying, instead here I am blogging.

......... Why am I not surprised?

Anyway, it's my last time blogging for 2 weeks cause I asked my dad to take away the laptop tmrw so I can study next week. (Yeah like I'm so rajin like that. Please -.-) And the week after that is Trial 2. I'll try and make myself forget about all hot guys (coughryanrossjaredletobrendonurierobertpattinsonjacksonrathbonee) and focus on being a nerd :)

Because after PMR.... dum dum dum.

UNITED STATES OF AMERICAAAA HERE I COMEEEEEE.

The US= More Panic at the disco, SHOPPING, SHOPPING, my sexy sidekick! and hopefully a zillion of other concerts :D :D I'll be a freak if I want to okay.

But yeah... looking past all the after PMR excitement, I really have to get AT LEAST 7A's. And not for my parents. For myself. To prove to teachers that even though I'm a naughty student *grins* I can get good grades.

... wtf damn determined but when it comes to opening books its a whole different story. God. If only it were that easy. I mean, I just started studying today and tomorrow I'm going to Singapore. Haha, I'm screwed.

School has been rather dramatic lately, like no shit. Tons of dramarama happening in class and I refuse to pick sides because for the FIRST TIME, it isn't me that's involved in all this shit. Proud ah? Haha.

Tomorrow's the Merdeka Carnival, which I will be attending cause I'm only leaving for S'poree at night. :) My happy level? Could be happier but hey it's PMR year so I guess right now I'm pretty fine.

Hrm. Recently people've been asking me what I wanna be when I grow up? And I guess I don't really have an answer, though I know it has to be something that's gonna involve me getting rich and famous. I know half of you guys are probably like omg so expected la i mean look at her she's such a bimbo (screw you guys btw) but...

I wanna become an actress or singer, but I can't sing for shit (especially infront of PEOPLE.) Acting? That I like doing. But I don't have the accent :) And I dont know how to make myself cry. I'd wanna become a writer too. That's something I can do till I get old haha and writing doesn't really involve Math. I hate Math :)

And btw.. when I do become rich and famous, it isn't just for the fame and money. It's cos unlike you lazy people out there, I actually DO want to change the world. I mean, sure, the money's nice too, but I HATE people who don't care about global warming and poverty and stuff.. Open your eyes.. That's also one of the main reasons why I admire Jared Leto. He's a rockstar, who doesn't drink, nor do drugs, and his eco conscious. If only he were younger. :( Haha.

So yeah, I have good intentions. And most probably I'll become one of the above... or maybe all of the above. One thing I know? NO WAY would I ever become an account. No way in freaking hell. Haha.

I don't belong here.

Ugh, I've just been so freaking lazy to blog. But since I've gotten all the pictures, I guess I don't have a choice though they're all on Facebook anyway. This is a pain in my ass.

In the hotel room (: before.

These 2 pictures are for Syuyi.

Danny O'Donoghue is a sexy man.

Ryan ross defines adorable.

Joey Zehr is incredibly hot.

Sex.

Phillipino dude from Chicosee(sp) who Tesha finds just adorable.

Danny's hand (;

Ben from TC5.

Joe Guese, TC5. Bad picture but T&T didnt allow me to retake-.-

It's 4:30 am and I'm lazy. I'll continue some other day. Goodbye.

Just got back frm Panic. It was really, really good. Leon and Jia Shern carried me on their shoulders, and I got smiles from Ryan and a wink from Brendon cause it was my birthday... haha.

Sadly, I didn't get to MEET them. I really really want to find out when they're leaving cause I've cried so much already :( :(

God I suck.

Panic At The Disco TOMORRRRRROW BABEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i can't resist. i promised myself i wouldn't post pics until i recieve em ALL but mehh I COULDNT resist.

AND OH YA. i bought breaking dawn dawn dawn. looks like i'll be getting minimum sleep ;)

guess who! it's danny o' donoghuee.

cue: evil laugh. nah just kidding. im not really that tall. it's just my heels that gave the effect.
this is a perfect picture cause i look squished into him :D

WATCH THIS, ESPECIALLY TESH & TASH.
I SHOULD'VE STUCK AROUND LONGER :( :(
his so sexyyyyy he can kiss me anytime. and omg the way he kisses made my heart palpitate.

.... grrh. only few people will get what i mean :)

MTV ASIA AWARDS PRE-POST :)

Okay, well, we'll only get elaborated on the awards & AFTER PARTY after I recieve the pictures from Tash & Tesh. In the meanwhile, hereee are some sneak peaks of what I've learned last night. ;) ;)

Number #1
- I kissed a really really hot guy, and his a celebrity. I'll leave you to guess his name, and yes, he is hot, white, and famous and his in a band.

Number #2
- Afterparties are the best place to meet really hot guys. Oh mannn the amount we saw (;

Number #3
- Kyle Patrick is an asshole

Number #4
- Panic's bodyguard is REALLY MEAN :( And Ryan Ross is just love.

Number #5
- Jared Leto... oh Jared Leto. (let's just say I'm lookin' at him in a whole new light)
;) ;) ;)

Even if we never talk again, remember that I'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me.