hello, i'm broken.

you: guy friendships usually dont have many rules
i mean, guys fight and such, but they get back together, cause they're guys
Me: yeah
you: there are two main things you never do in a guy friendship.
1. go out with your mates ex
2. make out with your mates ex
i broke the second rule, and im scared

later on you told me:

me: do you have feelings for her?
you: i've known her since i was 2, i've definately got feelings for her but i cant backstab my best friend like that

i know you are never, ever going to read this and i'm hoping that you never will, but you don't know how painful my heart felt when those words appeared on my screen. right now all i want to do is tear up all those pages in my diary, all those pages about you- but i won't cause i know i'll regret sooner or later.

i can't blame you because you're all the way there, and i'm here, and i never told you how i felt about you, so it's partly my fault too. but i know it's going to take some time to completely erase you from my head.

and yes i've moved blog. i just wanted to. clean slate and all. so, here's the picture of the hot guy tash & i photographed with.

i look terrible but he looks so cutee