WARNING: this post contains a LOT of profanities.

have you felt so angry you just wanted to slam random stuff across the room?
like your hands were just itching to slap someone across the face, or better yet, get involved in a fistfight?
like your entire body was consumed by numbness and the only thing you feel is the cold slipping into your bones?

i have.

i'm gonna confess a few things.

apparently, i'm a fucking bitch. to the core. i talk smack about people i'm not close to, but who doesnt? but i have NEVER talked shit about my BEST friends behind their back. at least not when im in good terms with them. but still, apparently a LOT of people hate me. Fuck all of you. Okay.

and okay. i constantly tell people that i don't care if they judge me. but i do get easily intimidated by people who look me over up and down with the "shes not good enough" look. I DESPISE THAT LOOK WITH ALL MY HEART... SORRY IM NOT AS SMART AS SOME PEOPLE, BUT INTELLIGENCE ISNT EVERYTHING.

and yes, i am rather self absorbed. even i know that. i am capable of rambling about me and all my petty problems for hours. i can. and sometimes i do. BUT YOU HAVE TO ADMIT, I LISTEN TO PEOPLES PROBLEMS. (jas, tesh, tash), you guys all know. It's just that I'm a terrible advice giver, that i dont give advice.

AND YES, I'M INCAPABLE OF MANTAINING THE BALANCE OF MY FRIENDS. but i love them all equally.

and to everyone reading my blog, PLEASE, if you ever feel like you hate me/want to hate me, drop me a comment so i dont have to waste my friendship on you.... I am being dead serious.

oh and apparently I'm a popularity chaser... thats new. points on originality. really. im so obsessed that i cling on to everyone and anyone. i like a zillion boys and I'm just SO self obsessed with my hair. Aww so cute. PUH LEASE. The hair part.... okay that's true. But 2 boys in 3 years is hardly MANY. shit, so slutty right? -.- SHADDUP LAH.

since i've already sweared a whole lot already... here's to the Anonymous, in my CBOX,
FUCK YOU. you annoy the hell out of me and frankly, just DONT read my blog if you prefer to remain anonymous.

and please, do not talk shit about this blog because I HAVE NOWHERE ELSE TO RANT OK. SO I WILL WRITE HOWEVER MUCH BULL I WANT HERE EVEN IF I'LL REGRET IT LATER.

goodbye and goodnight.