"I wish that there was a way to make him unsad. I asked him once why he doesn't put his bad feelings into songs and he told me that it's just to awful to think about and that he just wants to focus on happiness and the good things and make music with his three best friends. All of you who hate that I came along, because I made him "happy" and now you can't relate- well, let me tell you this. There is nothing I could ever say or do to make him feel complete, happy or even attempt to fill to void. Nothing. I feel helpless, distraught and sad too. It hurts so much to watch hurt exist. It hurts to see someone so wonderful, sweet and full of love, feel so alone, betrayed and unimportant. So, if you see him on the street or in a random mall give him a big hug."

-keltie colleen

i read this on someone's blog, and even though I've read it before it still hit my heart. she said this in an interview by the way. i mean, whoever said long distance relationships can't work obviously haven't seen these two... right now i'm stuck in the most awkward conversation I've ever had in all my life involving my ex crush and his girlfriend. hate the fact that it still makes me feel like shit because well, his my EX crush and his in Australia, but... you know me. why don't i ever fall for the easier ones, i have no idea.

this was an impromptu blog post because i'm miserable + bored, i'm supposed to be sleeping because orientation is tomorrow instead i'm here. way to go iman. well i'll go drown my sorrows in Sims now. bye world.