Not Now, But Soon.

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVERYBODY.

originally, i wanted to post a quote to start my first post of '09, but i gave up on searching for them. before i start this corny post, my results were 6a's 2b's. i'm satisfied, definitely, but not happy... just glad it's not worse.

i'm not going to write a super long post, instead i'm just gonna steal mei yi's idea and make a long long list. (meiyi if your reading this, sorry for copying your idea. haha)

so this year i -

1) I got to watch my favourite band in the entire world, panic at the disco.
2) I attended the maa's.
3) I got to go to the States.
4) I registered myself into a gym
5) I realized that i can't have everything... no matter how much i try.
6) I studied... and actually put some effort into it.
7) I learnt that even though my family drives me insane with their arguments and how i've cried because of them countless times, i still love them.
8) I learnt that there are many ways of loving a person.
9) I realized that change is inevitable, and i've just got to freaking deal with it. Even if it's hard.
10) I stuck to ONE of last year's resolutions: reduce myself from swearing.
11) I was lonely. still am.
12) I added acting to a list of my future occupations after acting during drama class and realizing that it's fun...
13) I started writing fanfiction
14) I moved to a new house
15) I watched 2 cirque du soleil's in vegas... again... amazing.
16) I opened up to people less. (dont know whether this is good or bad)
17) I stayed single.
18) I decided that i dont care what people say about my dreams, someday i will achieve them. and i'm gonna work hard for it, no matter what it takes.
19) I stopped sleeping with the aircond on (most nights).
20) I became more eco friendly.
21) I confessed something to someone.
22) I was jealous of someone who's very close to me-- i still feel guilty about this cause she doesnt deserve it.
23) I started praying more. (im not joking)
24) I decided to let go; and even though i can't, not really, i'm still trying.
25) I drifted away from some of my friends
26) I learned that people come & go
27) I believed in karma. like, i did before but now i REALLY do believe in it.
28) I made stupid decisions. And also some very smart ones.
29) I lost a blackberry.
30) I felt useless and worthless for a short period of time.. of course i never told anyone.
31) I sat for PMR.
32) I got closer to certain people.
33) I tried.
34) I got an A for my Maths. First time in 3 years -.-
35) I enjoyed life.

I guess I matured just a little bit more. Gained more perspective on life, gained more knowledge... My year wasn't perfect, I mean, whose ever is? But I feel so thankful to have wonderful friends and family, enough food and money to survive. I mean, there were times where I would think it was the worst year ever but then imagine all the people who don't have all the basic necessities we have. What would it be to them? Just think of that.

Usually, I may not be the most grateful person, or the nicest one either. Hell, I glare and I roll my eyes and use this expression -.- on MSN more than anyone I know. But underneath all that, I'm still human. I've got a heart. I cry and I laugh and I love... I burp in public, I laugh like a retard and I eat like a chicken. But I'm still thankful for every single thing in my life. If you've done things you aren't proud of (i sure have), you should just look on the bright side and attempt to change.

Change, that brings me to my resolutions. No, I'm not going to 'try to be a better person.' That's just so cliche and it never works for me... my resolution is simple. I'm going to excel in something. I don't know what the 'something' is yet, but i'll do it. If I fail.. well, then I'll fail. But that doesn't mean I won't try.

So, that was my year. Another hectic roller coaster ride. I'll be blogging about my trip... soon since it'll be so bloody long with so MANY damn pictures. but I swear I will! I'm hungry now.

kiss kiss.