First off,

Happy Birthday Jamie Teoh !

*stolen from friendster*

Finally fifteeen Jamie! Hope you had a great one! Sorry I didn't wish you earlier (: But thanks for being a great friend and for always making me laugh. Loveeyouu.

I visited my Shah Alam house today thats under renovation. Gonna move there in July. Yeahpp.

I have a picture of it but my phone's being stupid so...

Oh, watched Butterfly Effect last night. Kinda violent but I enjoyed it. Good storyline. Right now I'm dlding the second one- where Blake Lively's brother is acting in. His name's Eric Lively. Was pretty surprised when I learned her whole family acts. Like whoa.

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She was just a mess

Lips smeared red, mascara stained cheeks.

But maybe she deserved every bit of it.

The lies, the words, the hate, and the pain.

She would have remembered everything

If it would have meant remembering him.

Colour me blue, I'm lost in you.

Late update, bcos something was wrong with my blogspot for the past few days. Whatever. Exams are oveeeeeer! Finally! I can get some sleep. Well, there's still trials and PMR but that's a whole different story. On Thursday Tesh and I and I think about half my class stayed up to study History. And I didn't even touch my Geography book. (:

So, Friday after school, Tesh & I left for the Curve. We had lunch in Penang Village and got tickets for What Happened In Vegas and later on we were joined by Ely & Shafiq. Walked around, and we were joined by Jas, Tash & Rach. The movie was pretty good. Hilarious like hell but it was soooo sweeeett toooo! Ashton & Cameron look rly good together 0.o

Saturday & today, woke up EXTREMELY LATE. Yesterday it was 4.00 pm and today it was 3.15. Bleagh. I'm a pig. We've got extra classes tmrw and Tuesday and I may be going to Terengganu next week. Heh.

Gossip Girl Episode 18 WAS THE BOMB. Chuck was soo sweet! But at the end... ugh. :(

Jas: Dld dancing by Elisa and Who Am I To Say by Hope. Your kinda songs (:

Happy Birthday Lai Syuyi

*stolen from friendster cause I don't have a recent photo w/ you.*

Sorry I couldn't wish you earlier. Exams and stuffs. 5 years and still counting. You may be crazy and really BLUR and have a rather odd taste in guys but your my best friend and I love you to death. I really don't have anything else to say cause you know me too well anyway.

Ugh. I'm pretty sure that I screwed up my Science and Agama papers. My Science Paper 1 already has 4 mistakes. :(

Watch me bleed.

I've managed to control my temper most of the time, but today
I just snapped. Maybe, I just couldn't stand your constant insults anymore.
You know who you are. It hurts, though I know you don't mean them.
And though they weren't direct to me, it was towards something I liked. Alot. And you knew that.
You're my best friend and you know practically everything about me.
But I'm human too. I have feelings.

I don't know what's been wrong with me for the last few weeks,
My moods have been fluctuating more than usual,
I've been feeling worse than usual,
And I can't help but wonder about stuff that I had thought was unimportant to me any longer.
Apparently not.

Basically I've just been a jumbled up mess. Empty.
Sometimes I feel like I'm watching my life as it speeds by me.

Almost like I'm not in my own body.

Right now I just want the perfect clarity. I want bliss.

Plus, the lyrics of All Hail The Heartbreaker have been replaying over and over and over.....

ugh. i sound so whiny and depressive. Must be the loneliness. Oh I hate feeling lonely.

The air is thick with tension, much like when we are together.

Haha yes, I had that on my hand for the whole day. Happy Birthday Robert Pattinson. He's so beautiful (: :D okay. that's the bimbo part of me kicking in.

I don't know what to write here. I'm currently reading three books. Stargirl, Seventeenth Summer and Chosen. They're all pretty good and I should be feeling guilty cos exams are NEXT week but I'm not -.-
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"You're insane" you once said, and I laughed.
But maybe you were right, maybe I was insane. Maybe I was insane about how I unconsciously hold my breath everytime your around. Maybe I was insane because around you, I just wanted to tell you everything I've been through.

And then he walked into the picture. Maybe he wasn't perfect, but, the last thing I had expected to do was fall for him. Even though we'd never met, I still felt like I knew him inside out. It's been a year now, and I think I'm over him, yet, my heart still jumps everytime he talks to me.

And yet, every thought of you still puts a smile on my face.
Help.

I've got so many things I wanna describe/say but sadly this is a blog. Personal things like those I'd rather put in my diary. (: Because I'm sure half of you know who the "you" and "him" are.

These Things- Number One Gun

Hello all. First & foremost,

Happy Belated Mother's Day, Mommy (:

I meant to post this up yesterday but as usual, I was too lazy.

Even though my mom doesn't read this blog, if she ever happens to stumble upon this:
Mom, I love you very much and I don't know what I would be without you. I know I've made you mad more than a couple of times, but you've always been the number one person I go to whenever I have problems. I love you because you never judge me no matter what I do, and I know that everytime you lecture me it is for my best. So, happy mother's day. I hope you had a great one.

My family and I brought her out for high tea at Park Royal and I made her a card. The food was pretty delicious-- I hadn't been there since I was really young so I guess my mom missed it or smth cos she chose the place. :D

On a different note, exams are next week and yup-- you guessed it, I haven't even touched my book. Everyone knows me as the REALLY REALLY last minute kinda person and unfortunately, this time it's no different. Heh. This weekend it'll probably a blur of late nights and coffee. I should be studying now since it's PMR year but apparently I haven't started panicking yet -.-

Hmm, I really hate people who tend to judge you bcos of something you did in the past. Like me, I'm just trying to FORGET ABOUT MINE and MOVE ON. But SOME people make it impossible to forget. I'm not who I used to be anymore, and mind you, I don't ever wanna become that person ever again because when I look back, all I can think about is regrets.

So please, classmates of mine, I am begging you. Please do not talk about my freaking past with me because though I may laugh about it on the outside, it's a completely different feeling on the inside. How would you feel if you were me? Think about that.

OMGOMGOMGOMG i think i just melted into a puddle of mush on the ground.

their on-screen chemistry practically got me hyperventilating. i have so many things i wanna type about it but idk how, but to sum it all up, it is freaking AMAZING. robert just took my breath away. his mine (: so's jackson rathbone.

official poster. ahhah (: i'm obsessed.

hello world.
exams are in a week and a half, i should be freaking out right now, but oddly i'm not. which scares me. and believe it or not, i haven't touched a single book yet (of course, i've got tuition literally everyday, except weekends) but that doesn't count.

i've also been eating so much lately. that's probably an overused line in all my blogs, but hey, it's true :/ i ate like 4 meals today and it's only 5.30. School's been normal, which equals to boring. I'm currently addicted to Iron & Wine's cover of Such Great Heights, it is beautiful.

Dickson & Daniel have been bringing their guitars to school, and Dickson taught me how to play Your Call. I play it so horribly tho cos of my short fingers. (:

Okay, I'm just rambling here-- mindless topics. But yesterday I did something I never taught I'd do. I wonder if it's awkward now. Right, now I'm off to watch Gossip Girl Episode 16. Oh yeah, I've changed my phone number. IM me for it.

Goodbye lovelies.

hello, i'm broken.

you: guy friendships usually dont have many rules
i mean, guys fight and such, but they get back together, cause they're guys
Me: yeah
you: there are two main things you never do in a guy friendship.
1. go out with your mates ex
2. make out with your mates ex
i broke the second rule, and im scared

later on you told me:

me: do you have feelings for her?
you: i've known her since i was 2, i've definately got feelings for her but i cant backstab my best friend like that

i know you are never, ever going to read this and i'm hoping that you never will, but you don't know how painful my heart felt when those words appeared on my screen. right now all i want to do is tear up all those pages in my diary, all those pages about you- but i won't cause i know i'll regret sooner or later.

i can't blame you because you're all the way there, and i'm here, and i never told you how i felt about you, so it's partly my fault too. but i know it's going to take some time to completely erase you from my head.

and yes i've moved blog. i just wanted to. clean slate and all. so, here's the picture of the hot guy tash & i photographed with.

i look terrible but he looks so cutee