'Cos since I've come on home, well my body's been a mess.

My weekend was pretty eventful.

Saturday was tuition. Sunday, it was off early to Jas's house. Dee was already there when I arrived then off we went to.... well I don't think I'm allowed to say what we did but the bottom line is I had a blast with you girls! Haven't camwhored that much in ages. The kodak's are all up on Friendster but I'll post a few (VERY few) up heree.

Yesterday, slept in till 2 smth and left for the gym. Followed my mom to BV after to go grocery shopping. I love grocery shopping but hate it at the same time cause I tend to grab everything that's just gonna make me FATTER. I swear, I'm so freaking round now wth I hate it hate it hate ittt! :(

The parents left for Germany last night, leaving me here by my lonesome. i don't see why they couldn't bring me seeing how I'm on vacation anyway but oh well I'm over it. I do miss Germany like craazy though even if it's been like, more than a year since I've been there + I've only been there once in my life... Sigh. You'd understand if you went. Nostalgic now.

Today was a blur of TV and texting, see, I just got a new phone today. It isn't a new model, nor was it expensive but whatever k it's still a phone which means it's still useful to meeeee. I woke up at 10 just to go to the shop even though I slept at like 4.30 last night since I was Skyping with SOMEONE (who's probably dead right now lol.)  Tomorrow I've got tuition again booohooooo and the holidays are passing by so quickly! next thing I know it'll be school again.

Meh. whatever. Here are some peeektures.

3.24 am.

tralalala (:

for now,

i love:

the rain.

bon iver.

bloc party.

photography.

kate havnevik.

i am:

chatting with amanda. flux is playing.

so...

i guess it's  just me alone with my thoughts again at 2 am on a Saturday night. 

so typical.

though, for now, i'm satisfied. i guess.

it's just funny, look where we are now.

i honestly would never have expected it.

time is scary, isn't it?

xxxx.

six billion people, one of them's right for you.

to sum it up:

• My Bloody Valentine is definitely not my kind  of movie, unless you like gore and stuff. I was literally dying in the cinema like it's not even funny. 
  
• I am never, ever going to attempt sneaking into a different cinema ever again. Embarassment factor x 100. 
  
• Jensen Ackles & Cam Gigandet are smokin' hawt :O  (as if I wasn't aware of that fact before but still.)
  
• Quality time with Jas was much needed. It's been too long. BTW, thanks for covering for me I LOVE YOU.
• Oh and, sorry for leaving so early and leaving you alone. Heh. My mother is well... my mother. 

Tomorrow is OU with Manda and Syu at 11 in the morning. Gawd. I hate waking up early. The things I do for my best friends. Sigh, it'll be me, staring at all the pretty clothes attempting to resist spending money. 

DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD THAT IS?!?!

Meh. Update soon. BTW.

REMEMBER TO TURN OFF YOUR LIGHTS ON SATURDAY, 

8.30- 9.30 FOR EARTH HOUR.  

Our Earth is deteoriating enough as it is, and if you don't care about that fact, well. I don't care for YOU.

Okay byebye :) 

I hate this. 

WHY did I have to read that e-mail? Or even stumble across it? Trust me, I'm over it, I really am. It just irritates me that it still kinda hurts. I don't even know the reason behind that. It shouldn't, cause we don't even talk anymore. Hell, I don't even think about you anymore. 

But whatever. This is me wiping that out of my thoughts. 

See? I am so over it. (:

Who Am I To Say?

It bugs me how all these insignificant small things seem to matter so much to me when I know they shouldn't. I guess I should have expected it. People always leave, anyway.

Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not. 

6,5,4 and i'm all over you. counting 3,2,1 and having fun.

Right now, I'm blogging from my air conditioned hotel room in Pulau Redang. I just took a deliciously hot showerrr and I'm waiting for the rest of the people to get ready to go fish which will apparently be our dinner (:

The sad part is, now I'm bloody tanned and brown like nobody's business. I hate it. It isn't even funny man. Was at the beach for practically the whole day, just swimming and talking shit with my retarded cousin. Tash, my uncle, my dad and I then went snorkelingg and we had fun with Tash's underwater camera. Pictures will be up when I get them of course.

We went kayak-ing too. Tash + I fail. Kept going the wrong direction :D I WANT TO GO WIND SURFINGGGG. The kiddies got to go but we didn't cause we went snorkeling so we'll probably go tomorrow morning. Yay.

Okay, I'll update when I recieve pictures and stuff. Spring Break in 4 days. I can't wait!

xx

HTF, BABY (:

Happy One Year!

??????????

WHAT THE HELL IS HTF??????

I hate you guys

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY HTF!

Love you guys.

I was alone, falling free, trying my best not to forget.

Padded footsteps echoed down the otherwise silent hallway. 

Pause. 

She stared into the mirror,

An unfamiliar face with an eerily familiar expression greeting her.

Mocking her. 

Took her awhile to figure out how much

She had aged. 

Then again,

Change came in the weirdest ways, didn't it?

Flashes of color through her shot memory.

The inevitable quirk of her lips.

A grim smile.

She remembered everything;

even if it was all in a haze.

The regrets, the tears, but most of all- 

Those rare moments of  perfect bliss

Those  were the ones that made everything worthwile.

She would be fine.

on a more ahem. CHEERFUL note,

Akram.
:P

(since you dont associate yourself with anything 'emo.')

xx.

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room- John Mayer.

Hello loversssss.

I have a shitload of work to do, unlike all you people out there my holidays aren't until next week. I'll be off to Redang this Friday though, after school, for 2 days of bliss in the beach. PLUS, it's with my cousins and everyone (TAAASHHH! BONDING TIME!). I can tell I'll be coming back as red as a lobster already. 

So looking forward to that.

Spring Break on the 26th.  I cannot wait until that seriously. The circles under my eyes are so dark it's not even funny. Hmmm, Chapter 8 of Algebra is a serious bitch. We've just started it and my head was already spinning. Or maybe that was due to the fact that I could barely keep my eyes open but hey I TRIED OKAY!!

Gosh.

Went out last night with two retards. I got ffk-ed by a whole freaking bunch of people *coughTESHAELYASSHAFIQALYSHAcough* you guys are bitches I swear. Thanks alot. So, anyways, we watched Race To Witch Mountain which was a CRAP movie. It was so boring I nearly died. But, whatever. 

I still need to shop. I still need shoes. And dresses. And pretty tops.

CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO THE BEACH OH MY GOD.

righty-o. signing out. 

I can't help but feel like we're drifting apart. 

Then again, I should have expected it. 

i. need. to. SHOP. :(

shoes are calling my name. 

you keep me from falling apart.

yeah, maybe one day.

Earsex:
Wonderwall- Cartel.

Hello world. Today I got a papercut. Another plaster to add to the increasing collection of plasters on my right hand. My bruise? It's infected. I'm not even joking. Now it's bleeding and gross, and it looks like there's a freaking hole in my arm. Ughh.

Anyway, today and tomorrow are half days. I intended to go home and sleep but ended out going for lunch with them MKIS people at Plaza Mont Kiara. It was like full of people in white and green. Haha. Phoebe, Marina and I had a ' Starbucks Talk ', where we were complaining about the lack of hot guys / how the guys in our grade don't mix enough with the girls. Apparently our grade is the most boring one in the school. It was funny, in a way. But more depressing then funny. 

Then it was offffff to KDU. The first person I saw was Aiman -__- 

and his question was....

"EH, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" 

"I'm here to pick up my sister. And see people la!"

Followed with a bunch of stuff that I will not post here. Then along came Akram and his tallness. Then Jas (THE LOSER #1) came and dragged me to watch debate with her, because Elyas was debating. Saw a bunch of teachers including Norul who could not believe that my uniform looked like that. Tesh was there too! She was the first one to leave, followed by Jas. Sigh. See Tesh, and you say I ditch you?! Lies.

Watched the debate, Elyas was so retarded / hilarious. I really can't decide. I think it's a cross between the two. Left after he did his part, walkwalkwalk, went home. 

I seriously cannot wait for Spring Break.  Even though I'll be a loner cause KDU's hols are next week, but still. Heh. :D

My Girl (acoustic)- Nirvana

I hate feeling this way.

we get along much better than you and your boyfriend.

Went for Sri KDU's Annual Sports Day yesterday, the first Sports Day in 4 years that I was not participating in anything. Now I'm grounded for two weeks (It's a long story that I really do not want to get into). The things I do for some people. I was supposed to go out on Monday and now i have no friggin' idea what to do. 

ANYWAY, congrats to Blue House and Yellow House for placing first and second for cheer. And congrats to Akram for getting Sportsman Of The Year. After Sports Day ended, a whole bunch of us piled into Elyas' car and the most retarded thing in the world happened...

THEY FORGOT TO CLOSE THE BOOTH. 

We noticed it halfway when we were pulling out of the school, and Tesha was laughing I think. We dropped Akram home and left for Curve. Where the rest of the world was. Walkwalkwalk, met Jas & Eelin, left Jas and Eelin, and went off for lunch @ Sakae Sushi. I swear, everytime we go there it's ALWAYS sushi. Then, Elyas totally ditched us so we went to watch Marley and Me. Pretty good movie. The ending was so freaking saddd :(

I was pretty pissed off after the movie ended because I was freezing cold, it was freaking RAINING, and Elyas was nowhere to be found since he was watching another movie. Then Akram came down, we bought some shit from McD's, and just chilled for awhile while Tesh complained about how she couldn't feel her feet *insertstupidfacehere*. Blablabla,talktalktalk and Akram snuck us into Watchmen which I DID NOT ENJOY A SINGLE BIT. Too much gore and sex scenes in my opinion. Not my kind of movie.

Then the guys went to play pool while us girls just stoned. Jas, Eelin and I went for dinner at TGIF where Daniel joined us, and it was off back home. That was my dayy :D

PS:

I NEED AN EXCUSE TO GO OUT ON MONDAYYYYY :( 

feel free to post suggestions on my cbox or my comments page.

You know that I could use somebody.

Maybe I'm being paranoid. 

Maybe I'm just crazy. 

Maybe I don't know what I want, 

Too many maybes.

I've been moodswinging far too much these days.

It's crazy.

I can't help it.

I guess I should be used to it by now.

But I'm not.

There were no rainbows and butterflies.

Maybe...

I'm scared.

What do you see

When you see me?

Cause youuuu, take me the way I am (:

Dubaiiii. 

Right now? I feel rather satisfied and abnormally happy for some odd reason. I feel like singing along to every song I hear, I swear I think something's wrong with me. It's so wrong to feel this euphoric on a school day without even knowing the reason of it. -.- Actually I was thinking far too hard just now, and now I'm like... not. God, I feel like I'm talking to myself.

Moving on!!!

School's going fine, though I'm still a bit (okay, a lot) of a loner right now. And I'm sorta struggling with certain subjects, but the first year always sucks haha. I'm slowly getting adapted to everything, like not getting lost and all. AND can you believe that I've actually been getting my ass up at 6 something everyday! I'm so proud of myself for that. And can you believe my new friends all think I'm quiet? THAT is like joke of the year man.  Hehehehhehee. The scary part? I'll be starting the IB Diploma this August! Yes, this year. We had to pick our subjects yesterday, and we were given a book about colleges and stuff. I felt so old. 

Oh, and I miss cheer like craaaaaazy! :( :( Thats like the only thing I miss 'bout KDU. Like, when I go to pick up Anis I'll be watching them practice and it's like sniff sniff. Speaking of activities that physically exhaust you, I have PE like THREE times a week. With the guys. The very violent guys. And it's like 1h15 mins/ 1& a half hrs. Usually running for 20- 30 mins then a sport. You guys would die :P This week, we're playing touch rugby. (Brenda, if you are reading this, I swear I was so lost! Hahah!)

I spent last weekend at Arathi's birthday party, an outing with some people where I was the only girl, yet again since Tesha ffk me. And we watched the. most. random. movie evurrrr, Sexdrive. I'm not even joking. From gay brothers to trees with shoes. But, the ending scene was so sweet though, plus Fall Out Boy was in it :O 

This Friday is KDU's Sports Day which I will be skipping school for because people have asked me to come. Anyway, I'll only be having PE, IT, W.Hist and English this Friday so it's not like I'm missing out much. Plus, I wanna see Tash get flipped :P :P (her so called awesome excuse to give my dad. What a loser.) Saturday, I might go out with Amanda the monkey to gossip eat and Monday with... more people.  If you're unlucky, you might hear me laughing somewhereee in he cinema or maybe. 

:)

Oh and I dont mean to rub it in buuuuuut.....

JASON MRAZ CONCERT TOMORROW NIGHTT BITCHES !!!!!

So freaking excited for that even though I'll be exhausted the day afterrrrrr. HAVE YOU SEEN HIS CONCERTS? They are amazing fullstop. That ends my blog post. See, it' s nice and long and wordy. (I hate wordy blogposts. LOL) OH and ignore the two retarded posts down there. My friends have my blog's password and they were just being retarded. (:

I is Very Suffers

OmGzz. Ronaldo is so hawtzz. ~ ^^ I lubb lubbs

goodnights! XoXo! ^^

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Ronaldo is a legend

Hot guys

I'm gonna take different corridors.